Quit!

There's a limit to every men's effort. Really.

So I call it a quit! I give up!

Lantak la ape nak jadi pon! Ak give upppp!!!!

Jangan nak kate ak tak berusaha. Or I haven't tried hard enough. B******t!

Nak soh ak berusaha sampai bila? Buat apa berusaha kalau tak dihargai? Habaq mai tang mana logiknya tu.

So ko nak majuk, majuk la. Ak xmo pujuk! Takmooooo!!!!!!

Ati ak xde sape pon nk pujuk. isk isk...

K.A.H.W.I.N

Ak baru je borak ngan kwn aku aritu. Ak cakap ak dh taknak bercinta saje-saje ni. Zaman tu dh lepas. Skang ni kalau nak bercinta, biar la sampai kawen. Kalau taknak kawen, biar la berkawan sahaja.

Elok ak cakap cmtu kelmarin, rini ak dapat mesej yg berbunyi begini;

"U...jom khwn" jengjengjeng...

"I taknak kawen, I nak nikah" ayt biar terang ye. orang skang ske double meaning.

"Yela..bila u nk?"

"Bila u ade duit"

Senyap.

Haa....ni yang ak menyampah ni. Sesedap mulut je ajak kawen, tp duit takde. Memang la ak taknak bercinta, nak kawen je, tp agak la...Kalau cinta semata, ak nk makan ape? So far ak xde selera lg nk jd vegetarian. Kete ak nk makan ape? Ak bukan bawak kete lembu yg leh disuap rumput je. Adeh...

CinCin 2

Arini ak x pakai cincin. Semalam pon x pakai cincin. Semalam tak pakai sebab ak duduk rumah je kot. Kirenye ak pkai cincin tu Isnin aritu je, ari ak tulis psl CinCin.

Baru ak sedar nape cincin ak tu dh lama terbiar dalam jewellery box ak. Sebab ak tak suke pakai cincin! muahahaha! Tak selesa dowh....jari macam kene sepit.

Mungkin orang akan bertanya "Dah tunang nanti macam mana? Kawen?"

Hohoho..itu cerita lain. Kalau dah pakai cincin riban2, mesti la selesa tak selesa pon, ak akn selesakan jugak. Plus, cincin tu akn ak pilih yg plg selesa ngan jari ak. Takla cincin yg ak ade skang ni...itu cincin pemberian orang, saiz cam x brape ngam.

Tak pun kalau ak x selesa gk, ak jadikan buah rantai je. Atau bhsa omputehnye pendant. Kalau org tanye ak dh kawen or tunang, ak ngaku dah. Kalau dorg tanye mane cincin, ak tunjuk rantai ak. Haa...dapat berlagak 2 perkara dalam 1 masa. muahahaha!

Note: Pakai cincin utk raya and gi kenduri kawen je. Baru bling-bling! Ihik!

Motif

"I xde ni u jaga diri baik-baik tau"

"Baek!"

Okayyyyyyy.........motif dia berkata begitu?

And motif ak menjawab "baek!"??

Alahai yang...slama ni u takde pon, I tetap jaga diri baik-baik. Seblom ni bukan u tinggalkan I pergi tempat jauh, seblom ni u tak wujud pon dalam hidup I. Okay je I jaga diri.

And lagi satu, kalau u ade kat sini pon, bukan u jaga I. I tetap menjaga diri sendiri dengan jayanya tanpa bantuan u.

Lenkali kalau cakap tu motif biar terang boleh tak? Ak ni malas nk tanye, kang leh jadi gaduh. Kang kalau ak tanye lebih-lebih, dia jawab "Skeati u nak buat ape, I tak masuk campur!" Pulakk.....

Aku perlukan motif sbb dia bukan pakwe ak. huhuhu....

Horoscope view

My friends and I were hanging out last night. It was a very happening party. We got to meet each other after years! The feeling is over the top. Emotion=110% HAPPY!!

The party started with dinner. So we ate at Black Canyon, Alamanda. The food turned out to be a disaster! TAK SEDAP! Sume orang complain kecuali sorg kwn ni yg ak gelarkan 'tong sampah', dia sume ok. From there, my happiness temperature dropped. Terus rasa a bit moody. Bengang sbb makan tak sedap tapi mahal.

Then we went to karaoke. Seronok la masing-masing melontarkan vokal. Then few incidents happened and tros, happy temperature ak dropped to 0. Ak kua dari bilik tu and tros lepak kat lua sorang-sorang. Amik angin. One of my friend saw me.

"Ko kenapa?"

"OK je" senyum kelat.

"Urgh, you are so Virgo!"

Ak gelak.

Yes, I'm a Virgo. Tapi ak x kaji sgt pasal bintang ni. Simply because ak x minat sgt pasal horoskop. Betul ke Virgo ni cmni? Today I did a lil research and here what it says bout Virgos;

Virgo Temperament:

Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.

And here is another one;

Traits of a Virgo:

Analyst
Purist
Plays safe
Worrier
Has mood swings
Perfectionist
Easily learns mastery
Demands respect
Fair judgement
Pessimistic
Frequently depressed
Destructive at times

OK, question answered! Hahaha...memang virgo ni macam ni rupenye. Tak stabil. Mood swing yg drastik. Teruk betul ek? Huhuhu...Those yang ade awek/balak Virgo tu, saba jela ye...

CinCin

Kata-kata yang tak sangka terkeluar dari mulut dia. Tetiba je dia cakap

"Kalau you pakai cincin, mesti orang ingat u ni....."

"What? Your mom?"

"Takla..mesti dorang percaya yang you wife I"

Ak terpana seketika....kemudian senyum sipu-sipu.

Motif dia berkata begitu??

Anyway, since then, ak telah menyarungkan cincin di jariku. Cincinku sendiri ok..di jari tengah. Dengan harapan jari manis ini akan tersarung cincin dari dia. Walaupun I strongly believe that kemungkinan besar itu takkan terjadi. Ak kan memang suke memberi harapan palsu pada diri sendiri. Huhuhuhu...

A friend in need is a friend in deed.

Just recently, my friend went through a very sad breakup.

She was heartbroken, depressed, almost fragile. She seeks support from person near to her-her friends. But unforutnately, this one friend said this to her;

"Ala, baru kapel kejap pon nk sedey. Orang kapel 8thn ni putus pon ok lg"

She just keep silent. She looked at the floor. And few minutes later, I can hear she said:

"But I love him"

Yes, I agree. No matter how long or how short the love is, love is love. It needs more then just "I like him la" to fall in love with someone. It involves deep passion, great interest and high care. Just when all these 3 criterias are taken away from someone, just imagine how it will effect the person. As if, part of his/her life is taken away.

Damn you friend, why must you be that mean? So you breakup after 8years of relationship, you think nobody else deserves all the simpathy from us? So at this point of time we should stand only by you and ignore the others? Don't you think you are a bit too selfish?

To you readers out there, please understand your friend. Pick the right words at the right time. You do not need to always agree, just be there when he/she needs you the most. That only, is enough to make your friend happy. It's not so hard, isn't it?

Bukan salah aku....

Kelam malam sepi melamar kerinduan
Tak terpadam ingatanku terhadapmu
Dan pada siapa harus ku adukan
Resah ini kian menghimpit perasaan

Dan seandainya kasihmu mekar bagai dulu
Pasti tidak aku terbelenggu begini
Bukan salah aku retak semua ini
Berpunca darimu bertikam lidah
Lalu punah

Tak dapat ku bayangkan
Tuturmu bagai sembilu
Mencakar hati ini
Tanpa simpati di hati
Ingin rasanya
Ku laungkan rasa kecewa

Kekasih lupakan sejarah
Cinta kita baja dulu
Di manakah kau campakkan
Cintaku yang pernah kau sanjungi

Oh mengapa
Semua ini berlaku
Sedangkan aku sedikit pun tak pernah curang
Terhadapmu

Hey you!!!

Who am I, but a reflection of your desires?

Who am I, but a vessel of your insecurities?

Who am I, but a shell for your lost soul?

Who am I?

Have you tried looking in your eyes?

Hey you!

You say I'm desensitised,

You look at me like I'm compromised.

You say my morals have gone astray,

As if you've never partied under the devil's gaze.

You say I walk in delusion and shame,

So what if I break the rules of your righteous game?

For everyday I fight for freedom and truth,

And frankly my dear, that makes me better than you.

Hipotesis

Hipotesis=terms in science yg bermaksud andaian.

Biasanya saintis akan cipta 1 hipotesis sebelum memulakan eksperimen. Eksprimen pulak nak buktikan yg hipotesis tu betul ke tak-hypothesis approved, hypothesis denied. Ala, korang ade buat kot masa skolah rendah dulu, hipotesis tindakbalas tumbuhan pada cahaya (fotosintesis). Korang letak tauge dalam kotak yang dibuat lubang kecik, few days later korang tengok tauge tu bengkok ke arah lubang tu. So hipotesis approved.

Tahukah anda bahawa there's a limited space in typing message? Maksudnye kita tak boleh la nk buat karangan kalau stakat nak anta sms. Makanya explaination kita terhad pada point-point penting sahaja. Apatah lagi kalau orang yang dok terima msg tu habitnye mereply dgn perkataan "K", "iyela", "xpon", emm..", lagilah anda tak termotivasi untuk sms panjang lebar.

Itu penerangan berdasarkan fakta sains dan psikologi.

Bukan taknak explain panjang lebar tp kl dh situasinye sperti perenggan kedua di atas, agk susah la nk jadinye. Ak lupa betul yang dia saintis, makanye dia mmg suka buat andaian. Huru-hara jadinye bila dia buat andaian berdasarkan point-point penting yang ak cerita dlm sms.

"Dh la. U ckp pusing2 r. Jap ckp len. Jap ckp len. Tlg jgn tipu i lg. Jgn nk tmbh lg penipuan u"

He replied that to me.

"U bodo ke?"

He replied that to me also.

Masih terngiang-ngiang lg ak kene 'wtf' aritu, rini kene bodo plak. Memang betul-betul masalah ak ni.

I tak tipu...btol....