To get and to let go

It has been a month since I'm called a WIFE. Alhamdulillah, it has been a wonderful and joyous journey.

I had never been challenged. Despite the fact that ex-gf of En.Suami was still bothering him on our ealy marriage, there's nothing challenging about my life as a wife. 

EXCEPT, for that one day......

I received a message at 2am in the morning. Followed by a series of calls.

It was from a familiar number though. A message from a dearest cousin, who had shared ups and downs of life, for cries and for tears, for beautiful childhood memories, we were together...

But, the issue is, he is a HE.

I deleted the message, and rejected the calls. A wise decision I thought as my husband was sleeping soundly besides me. Who would want his wife to talk to other man at 2am in the morning right?

But he ain't deft, of course he can hear the loud ringing of my hp. He demanded answers for his questions "Who's calling?" "Why is he calling in the goddamn morning?". I remain silent. The reason for that is I had a promise to keep, a vowed I have made that I will never tell anyone about it..including my husband.

So we had a fight that night. I hurt my husband's feeling...and mine too.

Of course my husband and I manage to make up soon after. But for me, the incident was really a awake up call. Ever since I realised the responsibilty as a wife.  Its is about SACRIFICES. It is not just about how good you treat your husband and the in-laws, but also to let go things that does not suite your marriage life. So you get a husband, but you have to let go others.

As for the sake of this marriage, and for the much love I have for En.Suami, I am now willing to let go of my past. I have new world, and the new world is my husband. It is not like I'm regretting my decision about getting marriage, NEVER! But this is me embracing the beautiful world called MARRIAGE.